"The beauty of life - the pain never lasts, the rain always past, the sun don’t always shine. When it’s gone I’m lonely, but when it’s there I’m fine ."

"As a lotus flower is born in water, grows in water and rises out of water to stand above it unsoiled, so I, born in the world, raised in the world having overcome the world, live unsoiled by the world" Gautama Siddharta

Trey Songz-Set Of Wings

To my Father with LOVE Always
Daddy's Girl

Other people don’t exist….
Ever come across someone. Someone so chill. Someone you can talk to about anything and they can tell you anything. You don’t have to worry about the negative judgement. Well eventually you begin to like this person and once you start liking them no one else really even matters. you don’t see them. They are just non existent to you. you only think about that one person even though a million other people are trying to get your attention.

that’s how it is for me right now.

Girls!!!
We cry

we laugh

we smile

we hate

we love

we lust

we like

we lie

we hurt

we heal

we help

we give

we take

we share

we regret

we scream

we have a million emotions

we try to please others more than ourselves

we give are all only to get nothing in return

we fall but always get back up

we do this

we do that

Karina Pasian - Slow Motion (@RAWsession Original)

Karina Pasian - Slow Motion (@RAWsession Original)

"There are days that I just cry. I cry really hard. I don’t even know why. It has to be something deep down inside."

"Sometimes were so focused on what we DON’T have that we don’t Thank God enough for what he’s already given& what we DO have."

“Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.”
Proverbs 4:23

"This is Me. This is who I am. The perfect mistake."

A Woman Should Have by Maya Angelou
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …
enough money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own,
even if she never wants to or needs to…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …
something perfect to wear if the employer,
or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a youth she’s content to leave behind….

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …
a past juicy enough that she’s looking forward to
retelling it in her old age….

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …..
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …
one friend who always makes her laugh… and one who lets her cry…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ….
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems,
and a recipe for a meal,
that will make her guests feel honored…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …
a feeling of control over her destiny…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
how to fall in love without losing herself..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend without;
ruining the friendship…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
when to try harder… and WHEN TO WALK AWAY…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
that she can’t change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
that her childhood may not have been perfect…but its over…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
what she would and wouldn’t do for love or more…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
how to live alone… even if she doesn’t like it…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
whom she can trust,
whom she can’t,
and why she shouldn’t take it personally…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
where to go…
be it to her best friend’s kitchen table..
or a charming inn in the woods…
when her soul needs soothing…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
what she can and can’t accomplish in a day…
a month…and a year…

Everyone tells you deserve better. Then no one is willing to give it to you. <- realest thing ever. I hate hearing that whole you deserve better and this and that. especially when it’s coming from a guy

P.U.S.H.

P.U.S.H
Pray Until Something Happens

Well I thank God because my something happened. But just because my something happened I’m not going to stop praying, I will continue. That is where people mess up. They think that because their prayer was answered it’s ok to stop. WRONG!!!!

"Don’t assume cause I’m a woman that I’ll fall in love"

what the get through

"His Eye Is On The Sparrow"
(feat. Tanya Blount)

[Tanya Blount:]
Why should I feel discouraged
Why should the shadows come
Why should my heart fell lonely
And long for heaven and home

When Jesus is my portion
A constant friend is he
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches over me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches me

[Lauryn Hill:]
I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the sparrow

And I know he watches
[Tanya:] He watches me
[Lauryn:] His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches
[Tanya:] I know he watches
[Lauryn:] I know he watches me

[Lauryn & Tanya:]
I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the sparrow

[Lauryn:] And I know he watches me
[Tanya:] He watches me
[L&T:] His eye is on the sparrow
[Tanya:] And I know he watches me
[Lauryn:] He watches me
[Tanya:] He watches me, I never thought...
[L&T:] He watches me

MY Grandma!!!!

A grandmother is a remarkable woman.
She's a wonderful combination of
warmth and kindness, laughter and love.
She overlooks our faults, encourages our dreams,
and praises our every success.

A grandmother has the wisdom of a teacher,
the sincerity of a true friend,and the tenderness of a mother.
She's someone we admire, respect and
love very much.

A grandmother will always have a cherished
place in our memories and in our hearts.
She's someone for whom we want every happiness
in return for the joy she always brings.

A grandmother is all the dear and precious
things in life...
When she's a grandmother like you.

Happy Birthday Grandma

ur my Inspiration...

I believe that harmonies are colors

Every time I paint it sharpens my harmony
Yesterday I tried to paint you

But the colors weren't beautiful enough

Your love goes beyond what I can say
*******Beyonce*******
4m my lips to the hevens above

There R no words...

Miss me, but let me go
When I come to the end of the road
And the sun has set for me
I want no rites in a gloom filled room
Why cry for a soul set free
Miss me a little - but not too long
And not with your head bowed low
Remember the love that we once shared
Miss me - but let me go
For this is a journey that we must all take
And each must go alone
It's all a part of the Master's plan
A step on the road to home
When you are lonely, and sick of heart
Go to the friends we know
And bury your sorrows in doing good deeds
Miss me - but let me go

I can't the TEARS!!!!

I MISS MY DADDDY!!!! I MISS DADDY!!!!

2day was not for me

MOMMA SAID IT WILL BE DAYS LIKE THIS

????

There are days that I just cry. I cry really hard. I don’t even know why. It has to be something deep down inside.

not sure.........

…I have this strange feeling that I’m not myself anymore. It’s hard to put into words, but I guess it’s like I was fast asleep, and someone came, disassembled me, and hurriedly put me back together again. That sort of feeling

thoughts of today

My "Ah that's my Jam" for the month is "Chasing Pavements". I guess I love the meaning or the message of this song. Should you give up on a relationship with someone you love or keep on trying even if it will lead nowhere. This white girl can sing.

hAPPY bIRTHDAY daDDY!!!!

My Father Tony R. Woods:God took the strength of a mountain,Majesty of a tree, Warmth of a summer sun,Calm of a quiet sea,Genorous soul of nature,Comforting arm of night,Wisdom of the ages,Power of the egles flight,Then God combined those quilities,when there was nothing more to add,He knew his masterpiece was complete,He called it DAD,Greatest gift I ever received came from God I call Him DAD HappyCakeDAY I LoVe You!!!!!!!!!!!

he does.........

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This morning was rough. I cried a lot. I know it's hard to understand why someone who seems 'tough' is melting down as adults, I think we all get to the point where situations become clearer and everything makes sense after breaking things down in their perspective order. No-one wants to lead a life of sadness, No-one wants to finish last place. The reality is all of us aren't built to be the best. Some people are just mediocre cause they allow themselves to be. Some just can't past all of the things that make it 'hard to get over'. I know me, I cannot allow myself not to be the best. Even it takes me 30 years to be the best me. I can be satisfied. Cause I worked hard to be the best. I have been struggling to understand why I am here. What is my purpose? The more I look around the less support and love, I have from the people I put my all into. I told my 'love' I cannot help that I care, as much as I say "IMMA BE MEAN" "FUCK THE WORLD" unfortunately I don't have it in me to actually feel that way. I care about everyone. I am always being considerate. I always try to do what I can to help anyone that needs it. That is just the type of person I am. Everyone needs support even if it just mental. We all need it. It builds the person, not making you but its a big part in forming you. With high hopes I get tired of saying "Ima be optimistic!' But for what? Being optimistic is a cop out. You don't need optimism you need motivation to get you to where you wanna be. I thin k alot of times we say stuff like that with a cloud of doubt surrounding it. All my life by everyone I have been treated like the so-so family pet. I am loved.Often forgot about, Ignored, the same love i show them they do not show it back if i get hoit or bit. It's always "You'll Be Alright!" and i am being ignored all over again. I have tried to over look the fact that my family treats me this way. My entire life I have been shuffled from home to home. And people acting as if I was a pest. Just a child. With a bad parent. It seems like my entire life has been on false hopes. So what is what everyone would say. pain is still pain and its has and NAME cause it doesn't feel good. Everyone has become "Condoms" its safe to tellme or someone some corny qote or message "its ok" "everyone goes thru it" DAMN that shit. Hit me with the truth. I am tired of quotes. I NEED SOLUTION. I wish people cared about me the same WAY i extend myself out. NOW i have nothing left of me. And that is why I say I am losing touch with myself.

I am strong because I know my weaknesses. I'm alive because I'm a fighter.I am wise because I've been foolish. I laugh because I've known sadness.

"Don't be pushed by your problems.Be led by your dreams"

Telling me I can't is like asking me to prove you wrong!

God is oh so GOOD!!

"Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us. 2 Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory.
3 We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. 4 And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. 5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love." -Romans 5:1-5

SweetSaddness!!!!

"Lead me by Your truth and teach me. For You are the God who saves me. All day long I put my hope in You." Psalm 25:5

Far too Long!!!

It seems like forever since I've written on here!

I want to first thank you all for your sweet comments, especially to those I don't even know! You are the reason I write this. You are a blessing to me!

Life is going good for me at the moment. While I know that can change in the blink of an eye, I'm learning to embrace the moment right now. Whether it's good or bad, I'm learning to embrace it.

Jesus is my number one love still, but He has given me someone that is beyond special!

When times are good, you should be cheerful; when times are bad, think what it means. God makes them both to keep us from knowing what will happen next." Ecc. 7:14

Just Saying

So often, people try to make others fit into their mold and be just like them. We think, "If they would just change, then I wouldn't get upset. If they would just do it the way I want, then they wouldn't get on my nerves." But really, we need to give people room to be who God created them to be. Life is too short to spend it trying to fix everybody. Sure, we should encourage people and help them grow and come up higher. But we have to come to the point where we step back and say, "All right, this is who God made them to be, and I'm going to accept them the way they are. Just because they don't have my same strengths, I'm not going to let that frustrate me." We have to choose love every day because love covers over our differences and offenses. Love is what allows us to appreciate what others bring into our lives, and it brings us together in unity.

Today, above all, choose love. Choose to focus on the things that make your relationships stronger because in the end, love is all that remains



Blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting

"You don't have to love me...you don't even have to like me. But you will respect me.

"Love is something silent, but it can be louder than anything when it talks." (

"The things that make a woman beautiful are her character, intellect, and spirituality."

"Hate me with no sympathy is all I ask for. Hate me without measures or clemency. Because a grudge hurts less than forgetting compleatly".

Everyday I realize more & more how much I don't care what people think of me...Your opinion is beyond irrelevant #kickrocks

"Hate me with no sympathy is all I ask for. Hate me without measures or clemency. Because a grudge hurts less than forgetting compleatly".

BITCH READ!!!!!!!!

Current mood: melancholy
A simple bitch will take you where you need to go. *A real bitch throws you her keys and says it needs gas in it!

A simple bitch will tell you not to fight, it aint worth it. *A real bitch will say "Beat her ass" and look at the crowd and say bet nobody jump in.

A simple bitch will let another bitch know she can back the fuck up or get knocked the fuck out. *A real bitch will just knock her the fuck out!!!

A simple bitch tells you, she's had enough to drink. *A real bitch tells you we need another shot, we 'bout to get fucked up!

A simple bitch goes to the club with you and sits down. *A real bitch goes to the club with you and says lets show these simple bitches how we do it.

A simple bitch hates it when she calls after you've gone to bed. *A real bitch pops up at your house, talkin bout I know you aint in the bed, on a clubnight!

A simple bitch seeks to talk with you about your problems. *A real bitch seeks to take care of all your problems, rather it be a gun, a knife, whatever will take a fucka out.

A simple bitch wonders who your new man is. *A real bitch knows that mutha fucka's first name, last name , his birthday, where he live, who he related to, what kinda car he drive, where he works, how many babies mama's he has, and how many bitches trying to holla at him right now!

A simple bitch thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument. *A real bitch lets you know that was fucked up but we still girls.

"A simple bitch expects you to always be there for them. *A real bitch knows you will always be there for them, they don't have to expect shit.

A simple bitch reads this e-mail, relizes that she is a simple bitch and then deletes it. *A real bitch passes this to her real bitches without thinking about it.

“i have learned how to live..how to be IN the world, and OF the world, and not just to stand aside and watch. and i will never, never again, run away from life. or from love, either..”

“love builds up the broken wall
and straigtens the crooked path.
love keeps the stars in the firmament
and imposes rhythm on te ocean tides
each of us is created of it
and i suspect
each of us was created for it”

“I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

“i can be changed by what happens to me. but i refuse to be reduced by it.”

“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.”

“If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude.”

“everything has rhythm. everything dances.”

~~told by the great Maya Angelou

i always find myself eager to hear other people's story to relate to mine.
so i wont feel alone and know that I will make it....one way or another.

"Someday I'll f l y,

Someday I'll s o a r.

I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for."


-John Mayer

Haters are just confused admirers who can't understand why everybody likes you.

i hv been think...

i don't think ill ever understand life but each day i'm getting closer. i'm a dreamer with an overactive imagination. My motto in life: CARPE DIEM! This is not a fashion blog, celeb gossip, art, or poetry blog. This is merely my life in a nutshell. What makes me tick & what makes me the happiest girl in the world. The art, the music, the fashion that inspires me. This, my dear, is my life.

i am me

"I used to do it for the love a long time ago and all I ever wanted was love.
I used to love without fear a long time ago and all I ever wanted was love.
Then somebody came around and tried to hurt me, tried to make me feel like I was unworthy.
Took a pure love and tried to make it dirty.
Truth was they never did deserve me."

Anti-social
I'm totally worried that I'm becoming anti-social. Since working, I've intentionally missed 3 company events..

In fact, I had actually signed up sum10 to prove to myself that I'm not anti-social but I ended up lying about being sick.

I feel kinda pathetic having seen others having a time of their lives getting to know each and making new friends while I am here friendless. Well, I do meet acquaintances but I just haven't found someone or a group of individuals that are my clique.

I just don't feel comfortable attending these events and I haven't an idea why. Maybe I'm just unwilling to step out of my comfort zone ? Maybe I'm feeling insecure ?

i fell in love wit this moive"Twilight"

“Look after my heart - I left it with you.” -Edward Cullen

"I am full of flaws, stitched together with good intentions"

Sometimes you must close your eyes to truly see...

A message to all members of iamChrisFindley.com

To be successful, think of yourself as successful. Then act on your positive thoughts.

The biggest difference between sloppy incompetence and
brilliant excellence is in your attitude. Truly respect
yourself and the work you're doing, and that work will bring
results of great value.

The thousands of thoughts you think each day form the filter
through which you experience life. What is your filter
keeping out, and what is it letting into your world?

Your choices determine the direction your life goes. And
those choices flow directly from what you are thinking.

Think success, think achievement, think positive, empowering
thoughts of fulfillment and joy. Think of the most desirable
possibilities and construct in your thoughts the pathways to
those possibilities.

Think success again and again, until there is no room in
your mind for any doubt. Act boldly on your positive
thoughts, and be the success you envision.

iamChrisFindley.com

A message to all members of iamChrisFindley.com
When you've had a setback, ask yourself this. What is it
attempting to tell you?

Often the setbacks can turn out to be very fortunate
occurrences. Because they prevent you from going any further
down a dead-end road.

Setbacks force you to re-evaluate your strategy. And that
will invariably lead to a much more successful strategy.

When you've had a setback, challenge yourself to find the
positive message in it. Challenge yourself to find a more
effective way to move forward from it.

Use it as an opportunity to step back and get some
perspective. Use it as an opportunity to renew your
commitment and realign with your purpose.

See each setback as one more step on the path to
achievement. Then get back on that path, for success is
closer than ever before.